I hate making them.
I don't know if this is a product of my raisin' or what. I don't feel like I was raised to doubt myself. But somehow I did end up with practically an inability to make a decision about anything. This may partly be a self-defense mechanism. I've never been known for my wonderful common sense . . .
*Even more of a side-note: It's always been one of my greatest fears that my one-day children will inherit my complete lack of common sense. That would be bad for the world.*
Okay, back to what I was saying before. I absolutely hate making decisions about anything. I will always ask for other people's opinions before making a decision. Provided there are other people around, that is.
You can imagine how I felt about being the only lifeguard at camp last weekend. Yep. This little non-decision-maker watched over a pool which had anywhere from two to probably 60something people in it at any given moment.
At one point, I told one particular young gentleman that he couldn't have a tube in the shallow end, that all the tubes had to be in the lazy river even though he was one of the two people in the shallow end at the time. Actually, it probably went a little more like I didn't know that he was about to be using the tube and I asked him if he could please toss it over into the lazy river for me and he said "What? we're not allowed to have tubes in the shallow end?" I looked at him sadly and shook my head and immediately began pondering why "we're not allowed to have tubes in the shallow end." It's a rule from the summer that I was just blindly following even though there really wasn't any justification for applying it at that particular point.
So, I made a quick decision that I would only enforce rules that were directly related to actually keeping the patrons safe. (Yeah, things like the always-beloved "Walk, please!")
Immediately after I'd made that decision and was feeling foolishly proud of myself for having made a decision of my own, the self-same young gentleman and his chronies took up the ever-popular and forbidden-in-the-summer game of throw-the-football-from-the-shallow-end-to-your-friend-on-the-diving-board. I watched them for two seconds and decided that it was okay because there were no small children around in danger of getting hit in the back of the head by the football.
THEN, the young gentleman noticed me watching them and said to me "What? You're gonna tell me that I can do this, but I can't have a tube in the shallow end?"
I just can't win with this decision-making business, can I?
2 years ago