Really, it's quite ridiculous, this little part of me that's so determined to not do something a certain way just because that happens to be the way everyone else does it. For quite a while, I didn't make resolutions on New Year's Day, or Eve, or what-have-you, just because that was the time that everyone else made theirs.
Not because I-know-I-won't-keep-it-so-why-try, or because I-think-we-should-make-life-decisions-not-year-long-resolutions, or anything like that.
No. My only problem was that everyone-else-does-it-and-I'm-not-going-to-be-like-everyone-else-if-I-can-help-it.
Don't get me wrong here - I was a resolving fool. I could make resolutions with the best of them. And fail with the best of them...
But starting on New Year's? Never. Well, to be more truthful, my journal from 1999 may have some resolutions in it...
My sister, I'm sure, has quite given up being my accountability partner for any of these middle-of-the-year resolution plans, because I can justify myself (to myself at least) into or out of anything, no matter how reasonable she may be in her steady efforts to keep me accountable, or how ridiculous I may be in my efforts to get out of things.
So, you may imagine how much I surprised myself last year when I made a New Year's Resolution, albeit somewhere around January 5th or so as I recall - but still - closer to New Year's than ever before.
And, how much more surprised I was when I kept my resolve throughout the year.
I did slip once, which I justified, and which may or may not really have been necessary, but the fact remains - I proved something to myself in a major way:
It is possible to make one of these resolutions and keep it for the duration of an entire year.
Also? Let's talk about the fact that this was a resolution not to buy myself any clothes.
NOT TO BUY MYSELF ANY CLOTHES In case you didn't hear correctly the first time.
Now, in case you haven't noticed, I'll tell you a few things:
- I'm a woman
- I care about how I look - specifically how I dress
- A year spans across all four seasons - Spring, Summer, Fall, and Winter
Shockingly, I was fully clothed at all times (not in rags either!), I had a warm coat, an embarrassment of riches in the scarf and swimsuit department, and more button-ups than a woman who works at a summer camp should ever have need of. And dresses. So. Many. Dresses. Shorts were a little freak-out moment, as you may remember. But that was the only point where this was actually mildly difficult. And I say mildly, because really? 5 pairs of shorts is plenty for a woman who also has the blessing of a washing machine and dryer in her apartment.
All in all, I learned a lot about myself from the whole experience, and I really feel like a different person as far as shopping goes. We'll see what this year holds as far as whether we've actually killed the shopping habit as I would have liked to.
So, lessons learned:
- New Year's Resolutions can actually make a difference in my life, and my habits
- I can actually keep a resolution if I really determine to do it
Therefore, you can bet I made a resolution this year:
I'm going off processed sugar for a year.
I said it.
Guys, I'm really scared about this one, and I'm afraid it may be harder than last year
Throughout my entire life, I've consistently craved sweet way more than salty or sour or savory. And I know I have got to make a change. I've gone off sugar for a few months at a time before, but I always go back to old habits of putting so much junk into my system. Now that I know I can practice self-control, though, I'm going to do it for an entire year, so hopefully I will learn to get my sweet tooth under control.
Now, please don't think the point of this post was to say "Look at me and what I accomplished already, and what still-greater things I'm going to accomplish, because I'm Superwoman."
The point of this post is that I need you, and you, and you to know, so that you can keep me accountable to this decision.
Also I'm hoping it's a good way to revive the faith of some of you that have experienced some difficulty in keeping me accountable in the past.
Also, I think it's worth noting that I really don't think I'm going to make a huge change in my life by breaking a habit for a year, then returning to the way I was. I will be coming up with some sort of plan to keep myself under control this year with the shopping - maybe one item a month or something?
Not sure yet, but I'll let you know.
Also, have you ever seen so many colons and bulleted lists and hyphens in a single post?
Also, do I say "also" too much?